I'm torn on the issue of universities paying players, but I have no problem with them being allowed to sign endorsement deals. Nothing about the deal should involve taking more time away from their already busy schedules, though. That said, I'd love to have lived at the poverty level that today's college athletes live when I was in college, either when I was in my late teens/early twenties or the second time around in my early 40s. I would have done damn near anything to go to school without having to work 40+ hours per week, live off or Ramen or pasta, and graduate with a ton of student loan debt.
So Rashan Gary basically said "whoever drafts me is going to get me"? All those ttun fans are right!! They do provide a stellar education up there. Think of how much smarter he'd be if he had actually finished his General Studies degree.
I think everyone has hit it out of the park already, but I'm willing to share just so that you don't feel alone. I suffered from depression without even knowing it until i was in my mid 30's. It stemmed from two things.
The first (and most important) was that I was adopted when I was a baby. Being adopted wasn't the problem, it was the question mark of why I was adopted and who/where did I really come from. Adoption records in Ohio were sealed for about a 15 year period around my adoption, so there was no way to get answers short of hiring a PI, and they were largely unsuccessful anyway.
The second thing was a bad marriage. I stayed for reasons I won't go into here, but in the long run this was the final nail in my depression coffin. It was taking a huge toll on my life in all areas: as an employee, a parent, as a friend. Something had to be done.
Long story short, for me I was paralyzed by the marriage and the adoption issue. Once I realized the root of the problem I was able to move forward. I needed out of the relationship and answers to my adoption questions. I was unable to grow personally because I was emotionally stunted due to these issues. But I also needed professional help to get me over the hump. So far you've admitted the problem and you're on your (see guys, you're/your, but I digress) way to getting help. But as many have stated, I would definitely set some small, achievable goals for yourself so that you can start knowing that you are able to accomplish things. This could help you down the road with your career choice as well. Best of luck my Buckeye brother, and I'll be glad to help in any way I can.