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Arsenal7

DeKalb, Illinois

MEMBER SINCE   October 16, 2015

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  • SPORTS MOMENT: 2014 National Championship
  • NFL TEAM: Chicago Bears
  • NBA TEAM: Chicago Bulls
  • MLB TEAM: Chicago Cubs
  • SOCCER TEAM: Arsenal Football Club

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Comment 11 Mar 2019

urban meyer is an abhorrent human being and the fact that he is still allowed anywhere near the program is a detriment to it

urban meyer cost ohio state 3 playoff births between 2015 and 2018 due to horrible coaching and horrible coaching hires

espn isn't out to get ohio state lmao you idiots

tuf borland is the worst linebacker i have ever seen play for ohio state 

pete werner is the second worst

greg studrawa will cost the 2019 team a shot at the national title

Comment 09 Mar 2019

I don't. Fields would not have come here if he thought there was a chance he wouldn't be starting. You can criticize him for that or whatever but that's just the way it is. According to every major recruiting site and the coaches at the Elite 11, he's one of the most talented QB prospects to ever come out of high school. He'll be the starter and I'd bet my student loans on it.

I'm sure Baldwin has looked good but it's just not happening. A lot like Tate Martell last year, they keep saying it's a competition to keep both kids engaged but it's really not.

Comment 08 Mar 2019

I'm happy with how the team has played this year. The expectation was a bubble team and we got a bubble team. Not much to be upset about.

Comment 14 Feb 2019

This is way longer than I expected it to be lmao. Also I talk about suicide a bit just to warn anyone for whom that is a tough subject.

First I want to say thank you to everyone here for sharing their stories. There exists a pretty strong stigma still against mental health but, in particular, against men sharing their feelings with one another. Opening up is something that isn't easy and posting about struggles is genuinely a very brave thing to do.

I've struggled with depression/anxiety since high school (I'm 23 and in grad school now). It, along with a few other factors, caused me to drop out of Ohio State after my sophomore year and move back home. The situation I faced when I was there was untenable -- I would get about 4 or 5 hours of sleep per week due to constant panic attacks, then be too tired to focus in class and eventually stopped going to class altogether, which caused me more anxiety -- and I had a very real brush with suicide. I was standing on top of the parking garage next to the union thinking about jumping but was scared that the garage would not be high enough and I would just hurt myself very badly and not die. I got a text from my best friend at the time asking if I wanted to go grab dinner at the union with him, and at that moment decided that the union's brisket sandwich was better than dying (or at the very least paralyzing myself). I think about that text almost every day. What if my friend just wasn't hungry that day? What if he was but ate before class instead of after? What if it was sent 10 minutes later? I'm so lucky to be alive. The brisket sandwich is fire btw for anyone who is a current student on a meal plan.

When I got home, my situation improved but my mood really did not. I do not have a very close relationship with my parents and all of my friends from home had also moved away for school, so I experienced a profound loneliness when I was there. With help from medication and a therapist, my sleeping and eating habits improved and I no longer had suicide ideations, but I still felt isolated from everyone in the world who I really cared about and experienced an overwhelming sense of failure after having dropped out of college. To keep myself occupied, I had a full time job at Costco working in the meat department and pushing carts outside when needed. My goal was to pick myself up in a year and finish my degree at Ohio State.

With my sleep situation sorted I enrolled in a few classes at a community college, but realized that moving away from home was not a realistic option as I was still severely depressed and anxious a lot of the time. Constant work with a therapist helped but moving from Chicago back to Ohio and getting a new therapist and being away from my support system was, unfortunately, not the right move for me. I finished my degree at Northern Illinois University this past May (a B.S. in political science). Having overcome what I overcame, I recognize that it was a great achievement but I still felt as if I had not lived up to the expectations that I had set for myself. I did and still do have a problem with what my therapist called "should-ing" myself. That is, "I should get my degree from a prestigious university", "I should have more than 3 or 4 close friends", "I should go out to bars or parties more", "I should get a real job instead of pursuing a passion of mine", etc..

Over the course of my 3 years at home, I discovered a love for politics and for helping people. I would volunteer at a local suicide hotline and interned at a non-profit which provided counseling, community organizing, and positive youth development services for underprivileged people in the area. I started dieting and lost 50 pounds. I'm now in the best shape of my life and fitness is one of my greatest hobbies. I used my degree and passion for writing/policy/helping others to apply for graduate school, and was accepted into NYU's and Columbia's respective schools of social work. I just moved to New York 3 and a half weeks ago and started my MSW program at NYU. It's funny how my anxiety at not graduating from a prestigious school ended with me getting into a different one anyway.

My life isn't perfect, but it's a real life again. I've started over in a new city, discovered new interests and hobbies, and I've made some incredible friends that I would never have met had I not moved home from OSU. Some days are still hard, some weeks are, but I am trending up in my mental health, my personal life, and my professional life, too. That is the important thing: always strive to get better every day. It may start at just simply being able to get out of bed. Then, the next day, being able to take a shower and go outside for a walk. Eventually you can go out and get a job, meet friends, play sports. 

It takes time but know that it will get better. I promise that it will. Maybe not today, or tomorrow, or next week, or next month, or next year, but it will. Fight for every new accomplishment, no matter how small. Fight for every smile that emerges on a friend's face when they see you for the first time in a while, for every time you are walking around the block and notice how beautiful the trees look or the melody of the song the bird sings on the top branch. Because depression can take those moments of beauty away from you. It's hard, and there will be days where it gets worse, but the upward trajectory is all that matters. Stay strong.

Comment 04 Feb 2019

As much as I want Dwayne to go to the Giants, I really don't think they'll be taking a QB. They're far too invested in Eli still, for some ungodly reason.